As I am writing this I am waiting for builders to come and install a new shed. I’ve waited two months for them so you would think that a couple of more hours wouldn’t be that big of a deal.
They are a big deal.
The problem is the 8:00 a.m. – 12:00 p.m. windows when they will arrive. I’m technically fine with them showing up at any point of the day but not knowing exactly when creates a sense of anxiety that I’m not comfortable with.
Why such anxiety? Because I feel like I can’t start anything without the fear of it being interrupted by their arrival. Even as I type this I keep glancing out the window to see if their truck is pulling up to the house.
This post is easy to save as a draft if need be but I can’t start my workout routine or run the errands I need to take care of. This leaves me with small tasks that can be abandoned at a moments notice which give me the feeling of not being overly productive.
I try very hard to go with the flow and to lead my life with as much fluidity as possible – when they get here they get here – but this just seems to really bother me. It’s the feeling of my time being wasted which is something that upsets me.
I understand there is a life lesson here for me which is part of the reason I am writing this down. There is nothing I can do about it, even calling wouldn’t make them come any sooner. I may just need to train myself to stop looking out the window.